Who am I? That You would die for me

new 52 inch philips tv today!! = very good
astons for dinner = fair
unhappy mudder = bad :(

i need to better my eating habits :/

even though i exercised on monday and tuesday and abdominal workouts today, what is the meaning of eating "the massive" at botak jones for dinner yesterday and beef prosperity burger at macs for lunch today at 4pm!!! like two terrible places within 24 hours. (anyway i think i prefer astons)

i imposed a ban on myself to abstain from these lousy food for 3 weeks. subsequently i can consume them once a month. my body is a temple of the holy spirit and i must take care of it. unnecessary things should not clog up my arteries. and i must not be like those aunties i saw at giant.

adidas sundown run, anyone?

i am thinking of applying for a job as in instructor in nafa junior arts.

if i even get it, am i ready to give up my saturday morning and sunday afternoons for it? sigh, if i even get the job.

Let me life be a reflection of You

i feel like getting an iphone.

i dont really feel like sharing my life in cyberspace anymore.

its been a long journey and tomorrow's just the beginning. there is going to be more than what we expect.:) jiayou guys.

we have come so far and the beginning is still not here yet. but i sure am excited.

i am so glad i managed to take leave for cc tomorrow. i can't wait. handing over the shyte soon.

can you believe christmas is coming?

i dont really like posting things i like online but today i cannot help it. i stopped by bugis on the way back and found several things i want to get but will burn a huge hold in my pocket.

are you ready..

1. Muji Argyle cardigan $79
2. Topshop checkered shirt $69
3. Muji polka dotted umbrella $33
4. Polo RL romance scent $140 i think. and it comes with a nice black RL duffel.

ok i need to abstain from worldly desires and focus on the things that matter most and made right in the attitude of my mind.

i'm so completely exhausted i can hardly feel myself... everyday i feel like i'm just floating around. it is worse when sometimes i have to do repetitive work which make my life even worse. i hate doing repeated work. it is now 3 weeks to camp. i cannot wait for december to come. and certainly, i cannot wait to be off. i feel sickened and tired just by the thought of it.

today a blind man sat beside me in the bus although there were lots of empty seats around. i wonder how he know that there's a seat. after awhile, he moved to the empty seat behind us when the person left! i was rather amazed.

i'm so completely exhausted i can hardly feel myself... ever since the meeting i've just been floating about and not really thinking about anything.. and cannot think of anything either..

in just 3 weeks i realised that i do not have as much patience that i think i had, or would like to have. and because of this, sometimes i feel that i do not have what it takes to be a teacher in future. is it just me, or is it the experiences i had the last two weeks that resulted in conclusions like this. i, for one, hate repeating myself ten million times to students who do not listen and when i finish my sentence, begin asking their friends what i just said or ask me what i just repeated ten million times for one instruction in one class. i had 5 classes in a row. i do not like waiting, i do not like slowness. but then again, it depends. i do not mind students who are genuinely slow in learning. however it totally irks me when students dont show basic respect. come on, the world does not owe you a living and neither do i.  i totally feel like smacking the brains out of their heads and find out what's wrong with them. it was terrible and it was an ordeal in itself. total idiots i must say.

been crazy i've got no time to think.

today is special because it is more terrible than others. it was kinda bad. the thing to learn today is never to trust batteries that come in a big pack. they are of sub standard quality and won't last. at the beginning of today's first lesson, they panicked the hell out of me cos the batteries were all dying and i still had 4 more lessons after that. thank God sai came all the way from marsling with real batteries and that really saved my day. i hate being so troubled and kanchiong that equipment dont function properly during lessons. the classes today were totally shit. like probably the worst group of students. i am not looking forward to tomorrow's lesson where there will be more instructions.. esepcially the last two classes. i can seriously vomit blood on them. i think i'll spend like 90% of the time waiting for them to stop talking and 10% of the time trying to get them to do their work. and they are freaking 12 year olds. even the 7 year olds in the other school i teach can behave so much better. sigh..several other things were also very angrifying. but at the end of the day, God remained faithful and everything turned out fine :)

i have been so bored lately due to the absence of people where I work i resort to going on pet society everyday so that i can have some interaction. there can be some days without phone calls or smses from people i feel as though i'm not part of this world. indeed, no man is an island. we are made to have fellowship with one another. seriously, the loneliness is so terrible i cant even describe it. today the only people i spoke to were the uncles who sold batteries at the hardware shops opposite.

tomorrow i need to be at tampines at 730 in the morning till 1330 for lessons in a school. 5 hours in a row, save for a half an hour break in between and then rush back to office to meet an instructor at 330. crazy. oh man i'm going to be so extremely hungry by the end of it.

i realised i've got so many things since eons ago that i dont want to throw away. today i tried packing my desk and i kinda got stuck. i couldnt decide which to throw and which not to throw. in the end i just left it as it is. oh and there was this clump of ants in between my pieces of malaysian ringgit. readily, i sprayed dettol on them and they perished. 

today as i was jogging.. i thought of what an ideal lifestyle would be in 30 years. and i decided that it would be one in which i would stay home everyday, set up a blog shop and sell all things nice to people all over the world. and then i'll three dogs, 1 huge, 1 medium and 1 small. if i have a husband, he'll probably be off at work. i think that would be ideal.

today i went from west to central to east and then back home. chua chu kang, jalan besar, tampines, home.. i'm gonna spend a bomb on transport if work carries on like this.

anyway, we went to ikea today and i bought a very nice star lamp for $2.90. i feel like buying more before people grab all of them. pity they dont come in green. if not i'd get it too.. only red and white.

i'm very happy today i bought sennheise ear piece for my ipod. lovin it!

being alone in office everyday makes me feel extremely sian. i think today i have spoken less than 100 words.