Who am I? That You would die for me

today God show me how selfish i really am, for being angry at someone because i thought it was unfair and was being irresponsible.  :(
God teach me to love, and to put others first. Teach me what servanthood really means.

"Heaven and earth will pass away, but my Word will not pass away."

i think i will miss school when it's over.

being in melb for three weeks has opened up my eyes to so many more things in this world, and choices and opportunities places beyond singapore has to offer. Seek ye first thy kingdom of God :]

Having this pre-travelling worry that's going on in my head.

For all the blessings that the Lord gives us, we must always remember that we are undeserving of all those. In fact, we are not deserving of anything at all. for it is only by grace, through faith, that we are saved. it is by his selfless love, that our tainted souls have been won and we live as children of light. for that, we count ourselves blessed. 

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea
A great High Priest whose name is love
Who ever lives and pleads for me
My name is graven on His hands
My name is written on His heart
I know that while in heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart
No tongue can bid me thence depart

When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end of all my sin
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free
For God, the Just, is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me

Behold Him there! The risen Lamb
My perfect, spotless, Righteousness
The Great unchangeable I AM
The King of Glory and of Grace
One with Himself I cannot die
My soul is purchased by His blood
My life is hid with Christ on high
With Christ my Savior and my God
With Christ my Savior and my God


this hymn talks about the perfect security the believer has in Christ, who intercedes for us as our high priest. such an encouragement to me that whenever evil thoughts come through my mind, Christ made an end to all my sin, pardoned me and am counted free.

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visited ahma today. her both feet became very hard.. i don't know why. she can't rotate her ankles when she walks and can barely move her toes, dragging her feet under her frail body to walk. mom prayed for her in hokkien and i almost cried. Your grace and mercy be upon her please.

during games today all i wanted to do was to lie down and close my eyes. head was fuzzy and eyes so dry. but i tried as best as i can to enjoy myself and have fun with them - whoever that came. sometimes i feel so sad for ourselves.

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the fact is that being a christian is not easy. we should not run away from the demands of it or try to water it down..
deny yourself, take up the cross and follow Him.

i like sitting in the media room, doing my own stuff and watching them do their stuff too. it makes me think again of my purpose and the value i see in things.